When my therapist first suggested I try Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing (EMDR) to process my trauma, I thought she was crazy! I thought “you mean to tell me that you wave your hand in front of me a few times and everything gets better? Yeah, sure!” I went into it totally skeptical but I gave it a try. When she’d say “tell me what you’re noticing” or “tell me what you got”, I didn’t have any idea what she was talking about or what she wanted me to say. All I could say was “I don’t know – I didn’t get anything”. When I left the first EMDR session, I thought “what a waste of time and money!” Later that day, I was thinking about something (I don’t remember what it was), and I realized that my thinking about it had changed. It was really weird! She had described it as “the furniture in your head being rearranged” and that’s exactly what it felt like! It was so strange! In that one session, I made more progress than I had in 10 sessions. I’ve done EMDR off-and-on for the last 10 or so years and it is absolutely amazing! Every time I finish a session, I feel exhausted, worn out, and drained from tapping in to all of those emotions and memories that I didn’t even realize were there, but I also feel lighter than I ever remember feeling.
I don’t use any type of treatment with my clients that I haven’t gone through myself and after that first session, I went home and did extensive research on EMDR. I watched videos of actual EMDR session so I could try and figure out what it was I was supposed to “notice” or “get”, I read articles, I listened to and read testimonials of therapists who use EMDR and clients who went through it. After that first session, I was hooked and I knew I wanted to help other trauma/abuse survivors overcome the demons from their pasts so I went through the two training weekends in 2016 and I was certified on 10/1/2018. I use it as often as I can and I recommend it to every client I see.
No matter where you are in life or how much or how little you’ve been through, we all have hurts and heartaches that need to be healed. EMDR is an excellent way to begin that healing process and I would do EMDR with every client who walks through my door if they were willing. I’ve made a lot of progress in my own journey, but I still have healing that needs to take place and I’ll keep working on myself until the day I die. In this life, I’ll never get to the point where I don’t need help or don’t have something else to work on.